Books of 14.06.2019

Most of my readings are happening on my Kindle because it makes easy for me to reach English books and saves me from dealing with the Turkish postal service. Plus English books are expensive in dead-tree, so ebooks helps me save money too, especially on the shipping.

But every once in a while, we need some Turkish books in the house and we buy dead tree books. Today was one of those days.

Rethinking How I Use Internet: 3

This entry is part 3 of 3 in the series Rethinking the Internet

One thing I think bothers me most about all those social media platforms and its usage is the fact that it turned many people obsessed with numbers and they started to think about almost everything based on those meaningless analytics data.

For example, one of the Turkish musicians which I like recently did something really stupid and called out a random people basically saying “You have only 31 followers. Who cares what you think?” The dude was only saying that he gave another chance to his latest song and actually liked it this time. There wasn’t even anything remotely bad in that tweet or anything.

Another thing I’ve been seeing and still trying to wrap my head around is that some people trying to run their personal accounts like it’s a brand account. They’re checking analytics data, scheduling their most normal tweets based on that and bunch of other stuff. I think I shouldn’t be surprised about this considering years of online talks about “personal brand”. But this doesn’t change the fact that even thinking about it makes me sick.

I also see that people are also trying to do all that analytics, timing and other things on podcasting too. Like, it’s basically an RSS feed for sound files. People gets subscribed and listen whenever they want. But no, they have to put analytics and numbers into that too. And then find bunch of meaningless data.

Like I’m writing this post around 22 in Tuesday night and will post it when it’s done. Because it’s a blog and I’m doing this just because I wanted to. I shouldn’t be thinking about when I should publish this. But according to an important number of people only, I’m being stupid by doing this.


I’m really not sure about what to do in all of this. Like I said on the previous post, there are many people I like and care about what they’re sharing is in those places but other than that, it’s hard to find enough justification to stay in there with this madness. I’m not even talking about the toxicity part (at least not in this post).

I believe there will be many more in this series.

Rethinking How I Use Internet: 2

This entry is part 2 of 3 in the series Rethinking the Internet

There are many things that drives me away from social media, especially from Twitter. One of those is the fact that, from my perspective, social media kills conversation and replaces it with stats (likes, RTs…). This tweet from Jay (her account is one of my favorites on Twitter btw) made me think about this more.

(Conversations happening under this one is quite informative, you should read those too.)

One thing that made internet special for me was the fact that I was having conversations with people all over the world, from the beginning. Most of my real life friendships, most of the people who influenced my work and my perspective were and are from internet. Hell, most of my friends are still from here. And seeing more people thinking in a similar way makes me think that I’m not crazy.

(You should read the whole thread btw.)

More and more, whenever I look at Twitter or any other social media platform, I feel like I’m missing this part. And this is the part actually matters to me the most. I think that’s why I’m thinking about retreating to places like my blog or the newsletter, because those still gives me the feeling of conversation. A more intimate way to connect with people online. Yet, I see tweets like the ones above and receive a mention from a friend and start to think that there’s still hope.

Or maybe I’m just a guy who thinks way too emotional about a simple communication tool and gives too much importance to it. If that’s the case, I don’t think that’s going to change anytime soon.

Rethinking How I Use Internet: 1

This entry is part of 3 in the series Rethinking the Internet

This is not one of those “I hate social media” stuff. I actually owe a lot to social media and will continue using it. But not in a way that will consume all my energy and turn me into an angry beast, which means my old way of using it. Don’t know why but I’ve always been quite invested in stuff happening online. (Actually I know why but I really don’t want to explain it right now, so please go along with it. We’ll talk about it later.) But for a while, this attitude of mine was making things worse for me. I know because things got really bad, at least in a personal and psychological sense. So I had to do something about it.

And this is me, doing something about it. From now on, I’ll not be as active as I used to be on my public social media profiles. At least for a while. Of course I’m going to share stuff about me or things I’ve created and my blog posts will go there too but other than that I won’t be following it like I used to do. Even though that means I’ll be missing some stuff from people who shares really good stuff but I really need this. I really need to re-align my focus and energy.

But this also means that I’ll be more online in the places where I can share more half baked thoughts — as Warren Ellis put it. Because more and more, I feel like the way people sharing stuff or having conversations on Twitter is not the way I’m enjoying it. Shouting matches, political snark and burns gets quite boring and exhausting quickly. And my brain really doesn’t want more of these things. Instead, I want to write more of my half baked thoughts, have a conversation with people about those and use this tool called internet in a way which works better for me.

So that’s why I’m starting this experiment. Starting from today, I’ll be working on re-adjusting my internet usage, probably analyzing every bit of it and deciding what works for me and what doesn’t. Right now my plan is to focus on places where I can write longer and share the stuff I want to share the way I want. Like my blog, my newsletter and Patreon. Instead of ranting on Twitter, I’m going to put it on my blog, if it’s worth putting here. Because whenever I want to write something here, I think about it more than I think about a tweet. And this makes a good personal filter.

I’m going to keep using Twitter, Instagram etc. too. But Twitter will be much more limited and I’ll probably read only the stuff I put on my private lists. Instagram still gets a pass because I’m using only a private account which is highly curated and instead of giving me anxiety, it does the exact opposite. Maybe I need something similar on Twitter too.

So, that’s pretty much it. Starting today, this place (alongside with newsletter) will be my main places online, alongside with the secret channels. If you want to get in touch with me, I’ll be still online but less. Most of the people who’s going to read this knows how to reach me in those channels, if you don’t drop me a line.

Let’s see how this one is going to play out.

(The title is numbered because I’m going to experiment with something called “blogchain”. If you never heard of it, this is a good start.)

‘Work in Progress’ and Thoughts on How to Create in Dark Times

Cover of the zine called "work in progress vol 0.0 now what?"

[This piece first published at my newsletter “Weird and Deadly Interesting at May 5th, 2018. Slightly edited this part to publish it on my blog. If you’re interested, you can subscribe my newsletter here.]

There is something I want to mention, a project which I was a part of, called “Work in Progress”. It’s a zine project by Andrew Sempere and he was kind enough to include one of my writings from my newsletter to his project.

Continue reading “‘Work in Progress’ and Thoughts on How to Create in Dark Times”

Reporting From The Churn: Day 1, 2017

Before yesterday night, I was planning to write a new blog post [probably on Monday] about what I’m planning to do in 2017, and keep it cynical but as optimist as possible. But then, at the first hours of 2017, this happened.

It was shocking and devastating, some idiot motivated by delusional bullshit killed at least 39 people just because they were celebrating New Years Eve. But the main problem was, atmosphere for this attack created by many groups together, including some government organizations and pro-government media. Of course, many Muslim groups in Turkey didn’t liked Christmas and NYE celebrations and campaigned against those for a long time. But in the past couple years, especially in 2016, this become something more than that.

That’s why I wrote this tweet. Because even the government’s Religious Affairs Directorate practically approved every protest and attack against NYE celebrations. Those attacks were usually something like stabbing or beating people wearing Santa costumes (some acting with them, some just wearing for money), passing out threatening flyers and using their media to spread those threats. And every year, they’ve become bolder and ready to do more.

The main problem is, government and media close to the government just served them as ‘concerned citizens.’ Beating people wearing Santa costumes delivered as ‘cute news.’ They were just citizens trying to protect ‘our national values.’

But when it comes to the reality, things were not that cute. All of them wants everyone living in this country to act and live like them. Everyone in Turkey must live like a perfect Turkish citizen, which is constructed by the Sunni, Turkish men long time ago, tweaked by every government on the way. They are the ones we should be like and not anything different. And if we’re different in any way, we’re a threat.

That’s why when I wrote the tweet above, some people on Twitter started attacking me. Claiming I’m the one dividing this society, “playing politics over dead bodies.” So I wrote couple more.

The “We” I was talking about there is basically everyone who is not Sunni, Turkish and male living in Turkey. Women, LGBTQ, Christians, Jews, Atheists, Kurds, Armenians, Alevis, leftists and everyone else you can think of. We’re always seen as a threat to their values, to their nation. And every time an attack like that happens and someone like me comes out and says why people are too eager to do things like that, they say we’re dividing this country. We’re playing politics. Instead we should just shut the fuck up and be like them. Every time they say “We should unite against this attack,” they mean “You all have to be like us and instead of talking the truth, you should go along with our conspiracy theories which doesn’t explain a shit but helps us to gain more politics points. And if you don’t, we’ll declare you’re a terrorist too.” 

[Just to make it clear: This isn't something new or specific to AKP. This is the political culture in Turkey for decades. Every government in Turkey used it, just tweaked some parts or added some new conspiracy theories over it.]

I’m pissed off. Every time, every single fucking time, they do everything to divide this society and oppress us and then someone using their rhetoric kills people. And then when I say you’re helping them with doing this and saying that, I’ll become the target again. They cause all of this bullshit and then blame the people got attacked. Two days ago, Religious Affairs Directorate declared NYE celebrations against our culture [PDF], pro-government newspapers ‘warned’ people to not to celebrate, some people put a gun over someone’s head who wears a Santa costume and get away with it [in TUR], many local departments of Ministry of National Education sent notices to all schools to ‘kindly forbid’ NYE celebrations in schools (because it’s not part of our culture) [both links in TUR] and religious sect leaders close to them threatened people celebrating [people like Cübbeli Ahmet etc.]. Then someone decided to kill people celebrating NYE and now they’re acting like all of these didn’t happened and we’re the ones to blame. Just because we’re saying what they did two days ago.

FUCK THAT SHIT! I’m sick of playing the kind and good one against those secretly (and sometimes openly) wishing death to all of us; thinking either we live like them or we don’t deserve living in here; expecting me to apologize for everything I believe and do which they did not approve; doing everything to destroy every culture, art and lifestyle they didn’t like.

This is who I am and I don’t have any plans for a change or apologize just because some idiots didn’t like it. I’ll defend myself and every other minority living in here until those shitheads understand that only thing they should do is shut up. I don’t have any plans to let them get away with turning us into targets just because we want everyone to live however they want, instead of how they want.

This wasn’t how I planned to start 2017 but here we are. Everything keeps going and doesn’t care if you’re hangover or not [I’m, kind of]. It’s going to be a weird and deadly interesting year, as usual. I’m here to do what I usually do, only more and more. And with hope to turn the world into a weirder place with it. Because that’s the only way I know to resist against those who wants us to become the copies of them.

On Newsletters

Don’t know if this is a real thing but I might be addicted to newsletters. Maybe it’s something about the format itself or it’s just I’m mostly following people I really enjoy reading pretty much everything they write. But there might be something more about it.

Something about the newsletters makes it more sincere, makes me want to read it without any interruption and with all focused on. Even some books can’t get that much attention from me.

My guess, it’s related to relationship newsletters creates between writer and the reader/follower. It’s not like a social network follow. I don’t want to miss any installment or any sentence. I asked the writer to send me these anytime they wrote something. And send it directly to me. I guess it feels more direct than anything else because we feel our inboxes are our most private zones online and inviting someone to access there anytime they want to share something with us feels different than anything else.

And it feels kind of free and open, like blogs. You can do anything you want, any way you want. No one can limit what you can do or kick you out just because you tried something. It makes people become more interested in newsletters because they think it’s something new (it’s not) and blogs are dead (it’s not).


I was experimenting with the newsletter format for some time in Turkish and one of my 2016 resolutions (which I kept in my notebook and, honestly, a bit lazy to turn it into a blog post) was use this format more actively. I want to see what can I do with this format. Also I really want to gain the habit of writing regularly and more (especially in English) so creating an English newsletter too seemed like a good idea.

If you can read Turkish, my regular newsletter called Tuhaf Gelecek is out every Sunday evening (according to Turkey’s timezone, GMT+2) and you can subscribe here: http://tinyletter.com/tuhafgelecek

And if you can read English, my English newsletter experiment Weird and Deadly Interesting is here: http://tinyletter.com/weirdanddeadlyinteresting Hoping to send the first episode in this month and hope to make it regular soon.


On the name “Weird and Deadly Interesting”: For some time, I was thinking about how to describe what I’m interested as a writer and couldn’t find any short description for it. I was not focused on couple topics that have marketable names. I’m always an interdiscipliner, needs a bit weird, after the really interesting and dangerous. I never liked splitting the world into pieces which everyone acts like they’re not touching each other. I wanted to see and write about the world, as a whole. And when I looked at the world with these eyes, this name describes what I see.

I first heard the “deadly interesting” from Bruce Sterling, at one of his talks. And it hit me like a lightning. Maybe it’s somehow related to where I live, where I’m looking the world from. But when I added this to weird, it really summed up the world from my eyes.

Anyway, if you’re interested in receiving my English newsletter you can click here and subscribe.


As a bonus, I want to recommend some of my favourite newsletters which definitely worth inviting them in to your inbox. With no particular order:

If you have a newsletter or know a newsletter that you think I might be interested, feel free to recommend via email or just post a comment below.


Updated at 18:05:
Latest Orbital Operations Warren sent while I was finishing this, reminded couple more newsletters I already subscribed and also had some really good recommendations which I subscribed immediately. I added those to the list above.

 

RE: Spotify but for the Titanic: A Proposal for the Future of News and Publishing by @zeynep

Zeynep Tufekci wrote “Spotify but for the Titanic: A Proposal for the Future of News and Publishing” yesterday to offer an alternative for online media to save themselves from the invaisive and disturbing advertisement models. She offers Spotify-like system for journalists to make money and create a stable enviroment.

This all sounds really good at first glance but there are some really big issues (at least for me) I can’t wrap my head around.

  • Centralization Problem: We don’t want Facebook, Google or other stacks become more powerful, especially when it comes to publishing. But creating a place for all journalism has to deal with all the problems about centralization. For example, who’s going to make the big decisions like who will be the part of this or not? Are they going to censor stuff? If so, how will they decide what to censor or not? Will this system promises us to give everyone a place or will there be limits?
  • Power of Big Media: Spotify-for-Journalism will surely help a lot for mainstream media channels. But they’re going to have lots of power in this system, according to alternative ones and I’m 100% sure that they’re not going to use it for what’s good for all. How this system will stop it and create a balance between them?
  • Making Money: We’ve already seen that Spotify doesn’t really works for indie or alternative musicians to make sone decent money, and not even really gives something decent for mainstream ones, but they already earn well. And we all know that the media who needs money is the alternative or small ones. And this system only helps the big ones, at some point at least. I don’t think something like that will help us to save diverse and free media. Only makes sure the big ones will stay alive one way or another. And to be honest, they already have enough plans for themselves to save itself.

Those are the ones comes to my mind at the first place. We all want writers, journalists and everyone works in this area gets paid but I’m not really sure if this is the way we should choose. I’m sure that advertisement isn’t the one but maybe we should look for some way that also makes sure that we’re not creating another “for every X you’ll need” stuff. We need to find a way that will save us from centralization. If we’re not offering newspapers or magazines to merge together to save themselves, we shouldn’t do that on internet too. We need more and diverse stuff, not everything in one place things. That’ll only help who’s already powerful right now.

[Where is Ahmet] Investigative Journalism Conference, July 22, Istanbul

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Transparency International Turkey is organizing “Investigative Journalism Conference” in Istanbul at July 22nd. I’ll be participating in this conference as the co-spokesperson and senior editor of Jiyan, Turkish online news-analysis website.

I’ll be talking at the part named “An Alternative to Traditional/Mainstream Media: Internet Journalism” and will talk about how internet gives new powers and abilities to journalists, how internet journalism and internet itself powers up freedom of speech and what Jiyan does and will do in that perspective.

Conference will be in Turkish but will translate the text later for publishing in here or maybe in Jiyan too. Conference program can be found in here.

Hope to see you all there.


Şeffaflık Derneği Türkiye’nin organize ettiği “Araştırmacı Gazetecilik Konferansı”, 22 Temmuz’da İstanbul’da gerçekleşecek. Ben de bu konferansa Jiyan’ın eşsözcüsü ve editörü olarak katılıyorum.

Konferansın “Geleneksel / Ana-Akım Medyaya Yeni Bir Alternatif: İnternet Haberciliği” kısmına katkı sunacağım ve burada internetin gazetecilere sağladığı yeni yeteneklerden ve güçlerden, internet gzeteciliğinin ve internetin kendisinin ifade özgürlüğünü nasıl güçlendirdiğinden ve tüm bunların içerisinde Jiyan’ın konumundan, yaptıklarından ve yapacaklarından bahsedeceğim.

Konferansın programına buradan ulaşabilirsiniz.

Hepinizi orada görmek dileğiyle.

A Personal Take on Turkey Elections: Hopeful But Really Tired

“I can rest, finally!”

To be honest, this was my first thought when my brain started working at June 8th. I was feeling tired, worn out. And still feel the same. My guess is the elections affected a lot of people living in here similarly.

Yes, I’m also an digital activist, including lots of other things I’m doing. But politics, especially daily politics in Turkey is nothing but a total mess. It’s not my area, I can’t fit in. I can comment or report some basic news but I’m not doing it with joy. It felt like a duty, I have to spread (translate) what’s going on in here. It was an abrasive experience, just like last two months in Turkey.

Especially in May, politics seized everyone’s life in here. I don’t know about other people, but it was unbearable for me. Lots of meaningless fights on media, roaring election vans and booths everywhere. I was able to see stress around me. There was no place to hide from it. And it was blocking you to do anything else or even think about anything else.

It felt like there was no end.


But finally, election is over. I know that there are lots of political uncertainty and these will probably continue at least for couple of months. But even though I feel more hopeful about the future of Turkey, I don’t have any more power to follow this much anymore.

I have my own interests, things I enjoy following and arguing. Things I wanted to write, create. There are lots of things I have to handle in my life. But my brain was blocked, mesmerized by the elections and now I feel like it’s filled with nothing but crap. I have to clean all of the junk and I have to take a lot of things back from where I left weeks ago.

Of course I will follow what’s going on, but as long as it’s not about technology, internet, censorship, surveillance and freedom of speech; I want to be a follower, not a commentator. I feel like I don’t have enough power for any other stuff for now.

I might write another blog post soon to what I’m planning to do in near future, what my plans for summer. But for now that’s all I want to say.


In case you’re wondering my takes on the election results, there will be an detailed post on Global Voices, collecting all Turkey authors’ comments on that. I wrote my general opinion and I guess most of it will be included. I’ll link it here. But shortly: I’m mostly happy with the outcome, like Louis Fishman said, hope is the real winner of this election. I’m just hoping that ‘the hope’ will stay in the air and we can start long-term changes in here. Otherwise, some groups (some already started to work on that) will do everything to wipe out hope to get their power back. I hope Turkey won’t let that happen.